My brother died

(1)My brother died
(2)Start-up
(3)㉡ 22 hours ② 33K
(4)Even before I was born, my brother
(5)I was born with a brain lesion disorder, and I’ve been lying down. My mom and dad have been caring for me for more than 30 years
(6)I’m disappointed as I grow up. I can’t tell you
(7)I just lived thinking it was up to me
(8)But I don’t like you or I really want you to die
(9)I didn’t think about it. I thought it was a natural part of life
(10)But I’ve grown up and I’ve come closer to reality
(11)I don’t have any other brothers than myself
(12)Mom makes light comments about what she’d do if we died
(13)without losing one’s mind
(14)Crucially, because of my brother, I talked about marriage
(15)It got worse after I broke up with my boyfriend
(16)Of course, I told my boyfriend and met him from the beginning
(17)Your house was so vehemently opposed
(18)We’ve been together for 8 years
(19)My boyfriend was so tired of shielding me that we should just break up
(20)What can I do? I have to accept it
(21)But like a lie, he suddenly died this year
(22)After overcoming all kinds of crises, for a few years
(23)I was very stable, but I suddenly went because of cardiac arrest
(24)I thought my mom and dad would really cry at that moment
(25)Honestly, it was cool when I died
(26)I’m so happy It’s not like that
(27)I thought that I would be free from my mom and dad
(28)I was going to have a funeral for a moribund funeral, but my mom told me to set up a moribund funeral for us, so I spent only one day, but then I cried my eyes out
(29)I cleaned up all the equipment I needed for my brother’s bottle, and the whole family went on a trip to Jeju Island for the first time, and it wasn’t as fun as I thought
(30)And after I found out that you died like a ghost
(31)I got a call from my ex-boyfriend I broke up with
(32)Of course, I didn’t get a call
(33)I wrote a lot of things
(34)In conclusion, my family had a hard time, but my brother had a hard time
(35)Thank you for reading